Friday I had my lining check for my ERA cycle. I had to play with the schedule a bit and stay on Estradiol for a way shorter time period than they would have liked, due to a business trip I have next week. After only being on Estradiol for a week, my lining was a whopping 12.4 mm.
That is even thicker than last month’s FET cycle.
My RE just kept saying how “beautiful” it was, with the triple pattern, and how “wonderful” it is to be such a good responder to medication. And yeah, I mean, I suppose its certainly better than the alternative. But what good has it done me so far?
Beautiful lining means one less thing to play around with, but it doesn’t stop implantation from failing. Beautiful lining gets smiles at monitor appointments, but it hasn’t stopped my infertility in all these months/years.
It’s not that I’m not grateful for having thick lining, when many others struggle to build it up. It’s just that beautiful lining is not the goal. Beautiful lining is just one more reason for my infertility being “unexplained” as the excruciating hunt for answers continues.
In any case, we are on track for Thursday’s biopsy. A chunk will get taken out of said lining, in hopes that it brings me some answers or a direction to move in.
Even if I come back “receptive,” I will consider it time well spent- because every new slice of information, every new piece of the unexplained puzzle that we are in possession of- it helps us eliminate routes and ultimately, I hope, will bring us closer to our baby.